pemalas.. since when did i become so lazy. i'm lazy about everything. to lazy to think, to lazy to design, to lazy to pursue what i want. and to lazy to even wanting something. mungkin lagi quarter life crisis aja kali ya..
abis ulang tahun ama tahun baru kemaren garink bgt sih. dan entah kenapa i feel so gloomy, and this has been going on for 2 month or so.. maybe more.
sekarang lagi males ngerjain kerjaan design. apa berenti aja ya.. cari kerjaan yang biasa aja, abis sehari.. tapi ditempat yang nyenengin. keluar dari jakarta pastinya. kerja buat makan sama hidup sehari-hari aja. tapi actually living, living on my own.
although, pastinya i would miss my job right now. after all this is something i always wanted since.. i was in third grade. bahkan sangat ngotot untuk ngambil design. the problem is, i dont think i'm that innovative. suka ga puas ama kerjaan sendiri. do i actually fit here, ato it's just bcoz i want to be here. or this the only thing i know i'm capable of. (yeah atleast i did pas university with good grades and perfect 4 years, not even one single semester added)
i know good design.. but i don't think i could make good design. i just feel, i'm decorative. see.. that is so lame.